CONFUSED

I’m spacing out, I’m falling
This has never happened before
I can’t hear your voice calling
As I stumble out the door
I can’t understand why everything
Is crashing down around me
You’re my best friend and I’m trying to cling
To the advice which I thought would be key
But what you said made me more confused
Than I could have been before
My trembling heart feels slightly bruised
In my chest my feelings roar
The silent tears inside me brim
Causing pain I cannot bear
How could I ever tell him,
How can life be so unfair
When he was forced to move away
Friendship was all we'd understand
But thinking about it here, today
I imagine holding his hand
I cannot love him; he’s so far from here
Love is something I will not admit
Unless he were to magically appear
In which case the words may make it
To my lips which speak to betray my heart
Which could meet his so easily
But for now, today we’re worlds apart,
And so I’ll forever flee
The words that will let him love me back,
And let him into my heart.