HURT

I've been hurt on the day
that we had our misunderstanding,
But I took all the pain,
instead of complaining.
I've been hurt on the day
that you have ignored me,
But I just pretend that
I don't hear anything;
I don't know what you're saying.
I've been hurt on the day
that you gave up something,
But I just fooled myself and said,
"Oh sure, it is just a DAMN THING".


Date written: Dec.10,2004

DON'T CARE

Something happened that I couldn't imagine
You hurt my feelings
You don't care what's happening.
You don't care for me,
You don't care what I see.
You let me give up the fight,
Instead of holding me tight.
You don't care that you have
hurt me and you made me cry,
Instead, you stand up proudly;
And you said "Goodbye!".


Date written: Dec.9,2004

SAMA NG LOOB

Dito ko ibubuhos
Lahat ng aking saloobin
Dito ko isusulat
Lahat ng gusto kong sabihin
Bakit maraming taong manhid?
Bakit maraming taong ang hirap intindihin?
Wala silang pakialam kung nakakasakit na sila
Wala silang pakialam sa damdamin ng iba.
Bakit ba kung mas mataas sila sa'yo,
Ganun-ganun ka nalang nila itrato?
Di nila alam na meron na silang nasasagasaan,
Di nila alam na meron na silang natatapakan.
Mga pinaghihirapan mong ginagawa,
Para sa kanila ito'y balewala.
Mga bagay na ginawa mo sa abot ng iyong makakaya,
Para sa kanila ito'y isa lamang basura.
Wala silang pakialam sa'yo,
Kasi hindi ka naman nila kaanu-ano.
Pakialam ba nila kung nasasaktan ka,
Mamaya sabihin nila, "Sino ka ba?!".
Pinuna nila masasamang ugali mo,
Kasi gusto nila na ika'y magbago.
Kung magsalita sila, akala mo perpekto,
Pare-pareho lang naman tayong mga tao.
Mga taong kaya kang ipahiya,
Kapag nakatalikod ka sasabihing, "Wala akong pakialam sa kanya!"
Kapag kausap mo na sasabihin, "Ingat ka".
Ipakita mo sa mga tao na mahalaga sila,
Sasabihin nila O.A ka.
Sabihin mo sa mga tao na importante sila,
Sasabihin nila, madrama ka.
Oo nga naman, bakit mo nga ba naman sila pipilitin
Na ika'y tanggapin.
Sino ka ba para kaawaan nila?
Sino ka ba para pagtuonan ng atensyon nila?
Minsan nasasaktan ka, hindi nila alam,
Ba't mo pa sasabihin eh wala nga silang pakialam!
Minsan iiyak ka kasi nag-away kayo,
Sila ang may kasalanan pero sila pa rin ang lalayo.
Iiwasan ka nila, masasaktan ka,
Di ka kasi sanay na ginaganun ka.
Tapos itatanong mo sa kanila, "Bakit po ba?"
Sasabihin nila, "Wala lang", "ewan", "di ko alam", "malay ko ba".
Mga kasagutang paulit-ulit.
Mga katanungang laging pinipilit.
Gumugulo sa isipan kaya nagmamakaawa,
Sagutin naman nila!! wag naman puro wala!!
Minsan parang ika'y nagdududa,
Pinakisamahan ka ba talaga o,
Ayaw nilang malaman mo na ika'y walang kwenta.
Na isang gago na palaging ginagago,
At isang tanga na lagi nalang pinagmumukhang tanga.

Date written: July 2007

MARATHON

Movies...
I love watching movies especially Korean films. I enjoyed watching because it gives me a new style and topics that I often see. I love watching those love stories, comedy and drama, sad and touching ones. But the only thing that's weird to me is that, I don't sometimes want to watch with someone.. Ha Ha! yup that's right, I'm a bit of a loner type that wants to be alone in doing my happy times like watching. But don't worry, it's not always. I sometimes love to watch with my girl friends and board mates. We buy snacks and soda for us to enjoy more while watching.

I am really addicted in watching movies. Sometimes, I don't go out of the room in a whole day just to watch all the cd's I've bought and have movie marathon that lasts til dawn.. And when I wake up in the morning, I'll still continue watching even I won't have my breakfast..

Well, that's me! We have lots of differences when it comes to leisure time and fun. The point of all that differences is that, we are enjoying!

HERE I AM (camp rock cover)

This video I made was for my friend Laiza. She is Margarette Dupree in the Musical film "Camp Rock". Last semester,our section made a stage play excerpt from the film Camp Rock. I was their Audio/Computer Operator.. And I made this film for the play.

Hope you'll like it.

MY GREATEST AMBITION

I have an ambition that I want to reach
Ambition that you can't hardly believe
You may find it kinda weird
But this is exactly that I want to achieve

Ambition to rest in peace
Could somebody grant my wish?
I'm down on bended knees
Asking anybody and tell them "please?"

I don't hate my life for this
Or even hate someone who is fucking bitch
I'm not hated by anyone or I've done bad things
I just want it, nothing more, nothing less

Why? Is it bad to dream?
Does it sound annoying?
All of us can dream everything
Little, big, impossible things

This is my greatest ambition
To die without any hesitation
That's all I want to do
Its my goal I want to pursue.

YOU ARE FIRED!

Last month, I was fired at my job. For me, it was so hard to look for another job because of my age. I’m only 17 years old and have no experienced in other works but computer. I was so depressed that time. One day, one friend of mine shared me a website http://getafreelancer.com .It is a website about employment where people who wants to work at home can get jobs in here. I tried it. And I’m lucky that I got some clients who gave me works to do. Then I got paid.

For this, I learned how to be an article writer. I write various types of topics that my client will give me. I didn’t expect to have lots of clients that I’m overloaded of works to do. I ask one of my friends to help and I will also pay him as my clients pay me. It turned out very well. I did my job and got paid.
For this kind of job, I am not that worried whenever my boss will fire me. Because I have an alternative job that I could get some extra cash.

Thanks for freelancer. I got job without passing any resume or undergo to an interview. It saves me effort, time, and money.

Try it, who knows. Maybe this will be your chance to be productive in life.